is official

the first time i fall really sick ever since dunno when. I have like fever, very bad cold and very bad cough all at the same time. Not including the fact that i'm immobilised due to some rare occurence. doc says i can't play sports for 2 weeks if not i risk surgery, thats how bad it is.

i will still fight to go work tml. so so sick. argh!!!

sorrie guys that im have to give a raincheck if im meeting u this week. i really do feel that is seriously contageous.

have a go at life

my poor friend was so upset when she found out things of her ex-bf have done. Been trying to calm her down for like 2 days already, hopefully things get better for her. I told her that things will only get better from here, and i think she finds it hard to believe at this point of time, and i know why. Is the point that u feel that u need to be sad and angry and u juz wanna live in it.

everytime when i think about what actually happened i felt the same way too. Perhaps, i'm a softie to just let it go. i want to live the point of my life and feel it again.

perhaps, thats whats life entails.

past few weeks was filled with amazing ups and not so bad downs. somehow I felt I have lost myself, dreams and aspirations for the past one year. worked has sucked me. relationship has sucked me too. but thank god, i came back and realized that there are more important things I need to do to make my life count as something that is worth living for.

I went on and on when I was talking about my traveling trip with penguin last nite. i so look forward for my next big trip. I wonder when it will be and would like to have a go at it again, assuming if time and space allow.

there is a reason for all our existence in this world. everyone is trying to find it, im glad i have found mine in my early years, and would like to go thru it.

there are only a few priorities in my life, god, family, friends, sports and travel. i dun think it is hard achieve, i have even taken career out of my priorities. =p

side tracking, but i juz say a fantasy that comes into life. na()m!l!u. go figure and find out.

Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5

I wake up with blood-shot eyes
Struggled to memorize
The way it felt between your thighs
Pleasure that made you cry
Feels so good to be bad
Not worth the aftermath, after that
After that
Try to get you back

I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try(Yeah)
So this is goodbye

God damn my spinning head
Decisions that made my bed
Now I must lay in it
And deal with things I left unsaid
I want to dive into you
Forget what you're going through
I get behind, make your move
Forget about the truth

I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry(Oh no)
So this is goodbye

I've been here before
One day I'll wake up
And it won't hurt anymore
You caught me in a lie
I have no alibi
The words you say don't have a meaning
Cause

I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
And I...and so this is goodbye

Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
So this is goodbye
So this is goodbye, yeah [x3]
(Oh no)

how to lose a guy in 10 days?

what makes u think u have him in the first place? =p

round the world

im so happy to learn that many of my friends will be embarking on the journey to experience life ard the world. can't wait for the many more updates they gonna give me. i can again see the world, but this time, thru the eyes of all my friends.

i treasured my time globe-throttling, and i wished my friends enjoy the experience too.

this journey definitely out-weighs any opportunity cost that you might have.

trust me.

u live life only once. =)

afraid to be hurt

had a conversation with a friend of mine not too long ago, and she expresses her concern of being hurt again in a new relationship. immediately i drew a parallel concern that i faced, and i pondered....

i guess i was nv afraid to begin with, but wat makes me feel that way? maybe it was because of the recency effect??? after some great thots that I had at the range just now, i guess i wasn't and will not be afraid of being hurt. Regardless, hurt is part of the process of living. One can never be hurt too much, however, one can feel that they have been hurt too much. See the difference? =p

If it is meant to be, it is meant to be, y play god and try to avoid the inevitable. Why not let your hair down and enjoy the process. =p

Allow me to quote Rocky Balboa... "Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!"

In life, it is really not how hard you fall, is about how you get hit and keep moving forward. Pain is only temporary. Satisfaction may not be guranteed but one thing for sure, you can and will only do better from there.

If you are afraid to be hurt, you will start to be afraid to love. And when you are afraid to love, you basically lose the purpose of your glorified life. We live to love, and love we must. Love not only thyself, but thy family, close friends but also, even your enemies.

Love is a big word, but it only contains 4 letters. why can it be so hard to love? Hurt is a BIG word too, and it contains 4 letters too. can both coexist together? I would say yes for the ultimate fact that He died on the cross for us, he was hurt physically, to mentally and even spiritually and yet, he still love us just as much.

go forth and spread thy love. LOVE HURTS but you should still LOVE HURT.

An Interview with Rick Warren (Author of 'Purpose Drive Life)

You will enjoy the new insights that Rick Warren has, with his wife now having cancer and him having 'wealth' from the book sales. This is an absolutely incredible short interview with Rick Warren,'Purpose Driven Life ' author and pastor of Saddleback Church in California

In the interview by Paul Bradshaw with Rick Warren, Rick said:

People ask me, What is the purpose of life?

And I respond: In a nutshell, life is preparation for eternity. We were not made to last forever, and God wants us to be with Him in Heaven.

One day my heart is going to stop, and that will be the end of my body-- but not the end of me.I may live 60 to 100 years on earth, but I am going ! to spend trillions of years in eternity. This is the warm-up act - the dress rehearsal. God wants us to practice on earth what we will do forever in eternity.

We were made by God and for God, and until you figure that out, life isn't going to make sense.

Life is a series of problems: Either you are in one now, you're just coming out of one, or you're getting ready to go into another one.The reason for this is that God is more interested in your character than your comfort; God is more interested in making your life holy than He is in making your life happy.

We can be reasonably happy here on earth, but that's not the goal of life. The goal is to grow in character, in Christ likeness.This past year has been t he greatest year of my life but also the toughest, with my wife, Kay, getting cancer.
I used to think that life was hills and valleys - you go through a dark time, then you go to the mountaintop, back and forth. I don't believe that anymore. Rather than life being hills and valleys, I believe that it's kind of like two rails on a railroad track, and at all times you have something good and something bad in your life.No matter how good things are in your life, there is always something bad that needs to be worked on. And no matter how bad things are in your life, there is always something good you can thank God for..

You can focus on your purposes, or you can focus on your problems:If you focus on your problems, you're going into self-centeredness, which is my problem, my issues, my pain.' But one of the easiest ways to get rid of pain is to get your focus off yourself and onto God and others.

We discovered quickly that in spite of the prayers of hundreds of thousands of people, God was not going to heal Kay or make it easy for her- It has been very difficult for her, and yet God has strengthened her character, given her a ministry of helping other people, given her a testimony, drawn her closer to Him and to people.

You have to learn to deal with both the good and the bad of life.

Actually, sometimes learning to deal with the good is harder. For instance, this past year, all of a sudden, when the book sold 15 million copies, it made me instantly very wealthy.It also brought a lot of notoriety that I had never had to deal with before. I don't think God gives! you mon ey or notoriety for your own ego or for you to live a life of ease.
So I began to ask God what He wanted me to do with this money, notoriety and influence. He gave me two different passages that helped me decide what to do, II Corinthians 9 and Psalm 72.

First, in spite of all the money coming in, we would not change our lifestyle one bit.. We made no major purchases.

Second, about midway through last year, I stopped taking a salary from the church.

Third, we set up foundations to fund an initiative we call The Peace Plan to plant churches, equip leaders, assist the poor, care for the sick, and educate the next generation.

Fourth, I added up all that the church had paid me in the 24 years since I started the church, and I gave it all back. It was liberating to be able to serve God for free.

We need to ask ourselves: Am I going to live for possessions? Popularity?Am I going to be driven by pressures? Guilt? Bitterness? Materialism? Or am I going to be driven by God's purposes (for my life)?

When I get up in the morning, I sit on the side of my bed and say, God, if I don't get anything else done today, I want to know You more and love You better. God didn't put me on earth just to fulfill a to-do list. He's more interested in what I am than what I do.That's why we're called human beings, not human doings.

Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.
Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.
Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD. .

Gonna be a good weekend

It has been busy busy busy for me for the past weekends man. I have travelled out of Singapore for the all my weekends for the last one month, and I must tell you, it was great fun.

This week, I yearned for some good rest.....

I'm looking forward to sort my mails for the longest of time, and those photos that I have taken.

Once again, thank you all for being there. And for those of you who are not there? where are you?? I hope to see you really soon~~~~~~~~~

:)

1. Losing all your friends
Man comes home and finds his wife with his friend in bed.
He shoots his friend and kills him. Wife says "If you behave like this, you will lose ALL your friends."

2. Brother wanted
A small boy wrote to Santa Claus,"send me a brother"....
Santa wrote back, "SEND ME YOUR MOTHER"....

3. Meaning of WIFE
Husband asks, "Do you know the meaning of WIFE? It means 'Without Information Fighting Everytime'!"
Wife replies, "No, it means 'With Idiot For Ever'!!!"

4. Importance of a period
Teacher: "Do you know the importance of a period?"
Kid: "Yeah, once my sister said she has missed one, my mom fainted, dad got a heart attack & our driver ran away."

5. Confident vs. Confidential
A young boy asks his Dad, "What is the difference between confident and confidential?" Dad says, "You are my son, I'm confident about that. Your friend over there, is also my son, that's confidential! "

6. Anger management
Husband: "When I get mad at you, you never fight back. How do you control your anger?"
Wife: "I clean the toilet."
Husband: "How does that help?"
Wife: "I use your toothbrush."

what is wrong?

as i started with this blog, i juz want to share as much of my life as possible to my close friends and also for myself to recap on the days that i had so much fun or have been really down.

the recent -ve thots isnt what my blog is all abt. juz penning down my thots, in case if in the future i may wanna revisit it. ahem.

and yes that the past few weeks aint easy for me, probably im being put to a test by Him and i'm sure there will be a sunshine after the rain.

last week, i thought if anyone was to be given my position would be definitely be at the top of the work, popping champagnes and celebrating the achievement, but not me, not me when I am supposed to feel this way for the many things that happen last week. Last week would be one of the milestones in my life that when I look back, i would have confidently said that this is the week that it all happened and made me what im now and in the future.

and no, i wasnt happy, in fact i was pretty nonchalent and wld love to be left alone amist all these happenings. and then i ask y? no answers....

didnt quite feel myself, and quite often i fell into a deep sense of starring into spaces and thinking about nothing, and appearing quite oblivious to the surroundings, for reasons that I dunno.

probably i juz need to find myself AGAIN. =p